Tdae was shit..Everything went wrong for me.. I dunno why but i dun give a fuck those i just scolded.. Im really pissed and i really dunno y just hate whatever is happening and happened.. I just dunno what to do.. Im soo Confused and also got no mood in most things.. I just sat at home this few days accept for some EGAGEMENT invitation.. I just hate everything rite now..

Im no more interested in going for a shopping spree for nw.. Not even felt like calling friends for a coffee at the coffee shop.. Im really shit rite nw.. Always in bad mood swings.. Easily get mad and dunno what to do..

I just felt that im at no luck for love.. Mayb its for me to help people but not being able to help myself.. I just suck at everything and really in a temper.. Shit!! Hopefully everything end quickly or im getting in trouble soon.. Its lucky for some to leave me nw cause im afraid i might hurt them. Some friends try to advice but end up being fucked up.. I duno y i just dun wan anything rite nw.. The past keeps on haunting and i dunno y .. Things that i try to avoid keeps on happening.. It is wrong being kind?..My appetite falling .. I didnt ate any rice this few days.. Fuck with advices bout my health cause i dont need it seriously.. My mum just kept on forcing and still i ignored her.. I just dunno y? Im confused.. Things had always being happy for a moment and yet being hurt even longer.. Some say love just come by itself just dun find it.. FUCK YOU.. Shit ive been waiting for 7 mnths still nuthing.. FUCK!!! Im sick of this fake stories.. Im just sick of everything.. Just want to take time to relax.. Haiz.. Its really hard.. I cannot expect things to fall from the sky and i noe it wont happen my way everytime.. Everytime i fall for someone it only last some pityfull happy moments and end up something bad happen which cause a permanent demage on me!! .. Atleast let the hurt go away.. Im just like some emo shits.. But istead of crying i got mad and instead of cutting myself i hurt other people.. I really dun want any trouble.. But dun try provoking.. Feel like giving up hope.. I dunno.. I just dun like when the third party comes by.. It really makes me feel like leaving everything behind..

As for the boredom that i suffered i decide to atleast do abit of physical training.. To atleast boost up my stamina or someting.. Ive also been smoking too much and fucked my throat really killing me.. But who give a fuck i dun care if anione care i just ignore them..Just feel like having fun no more.. Just seriousness and no more pity smilling face.. Cause the some really dun deserve it trully.. Luckily i still had friends who cares for me and really didnt gave up on me.. I really owe them a favour and praise their sincerity.. So ya thats all i dont have thats much mood to type more.. taking care..